Friday, December 08, 2006
These days have been rojak for me, which i ate at some famous stall in bedok south, which made me wait at least 15mins when i was the 2nd in line on Monday.
Guess festive seasons always bring strange feelings on me, or maybe the events of the last few weeks.
They aren't drastic, but yet enough to rock my boat.
Let's start with Ups
For the first time in a very very very long while i laughed pretty heartily while watching a Channel U drama serial at 7pm, don't even know what's the title, but it was so dumb!
Haha signs that i'm happily enjoying things on my own!
I made some people happy i think, it's heart warming to know i can be a friend that i bring joy to people's life.
Although it's not a good thing to be dependent on others to feel happy but nontherless it brought me joy to see people i love and treasure happy :)
Haha quite significantly remember saying something nice to someone and that person was so appreciative kept saying thank you ahah so nice :)
Ok going down hill ahah
Silence is the best answer, my current msn nick.
Hiaz....
2 reasons for it.
1. God's favourite answer for me is SILENCE with caps lock on. Apparently He thinks i'm matured and capabale enough to make decisions on my own, that somewhere deep down He has already given me the answers all i need to do is to listen.
Not fun. Think i want to be spoon fed too much, ahah i claim the verse from Isaiah 30:21 too much that says, "Not matter whether you turn left or right, your ears will hear a voice telling you which way to turn!"
A little bit disappointed when the evangelistic band that i wanted to be part of called me. They said that currently they didn't have any projects and weren't really in need of people. But still asked me for an audition next thursday. Haha mixed feelings about it, not in a long time have i suddenly feel not confident about my playing. Sounded terrible the last few days when i was trying it out alone. Sighz just going with the attitude of finding out more and making contact, i've done all i can guess this is God's way of closing doors.....
Thinking of doing a part time Certificate in Creative Arts with TCA, ahah can't bear to part with about 3k and 2 yrs of my life, told myself ahha i not going to get married in the near future ahah so should be able to part with it. Not sure whether i'll have the discipline to go for night calsses and to study for exams. Still very much rather play, have live experience in a band.....
Dunno, but i d/l the forms its sitting on my table.
2. Haha this one is my own problem lah. Just feel silence and cold shoulder from some people, hiaz, or more accurately its just not the way i would like to be responded to. Expectations......
Takes time i guess, or maybe it's just not meant to be that way.
We'll see yah?
Think deep down i know what i should do.
May i be strong to do the right thing.
So help me God.
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josh out
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