Monday, January 15, 2007
It's been a long while lor.
Hmm a couple of weeks.
Guess i'm just very lazy.
Or the events, the struggles, the stupidity of the past few weeks have been a little difficult to write about.
Or maybe i've had life good, things that i can deal with, so no need to whine.
Or my brain just went dead ahha.
Hehe think i want to ask my pastor whether i can try out writing for church articles. bleah sounds fun. wonder whether i'll do good or make sense. ahha We shall see.
I want to dream and fly, ahah wish i had wings, like the one the X-men guy had with the exception of being able to make it disappear at will instead of cutting them off, ouch!
Really really pray i would be obedient this year, to be able to see visions, pictures of what god wants me to do, and to be able to soar in those things. Always keeping focused.
Lead my first worship this year last sun. It was horrendous, everything refused to work,the 1st 15mins the projector didn't work. Then throughout the service people didn't seem like they were worshipping. The only time i felt God was when i was singing communion solo.
But i did what i set out to do. I spoke into the lives of my worship team, challenged them to meet God, challenged them to worship God 1st above all.
And i felt i succeded. thank you god.
It was beautiful.
I told them honestly that i'm not a natural leader, theoretical music i know nuts, but god has given me that heart to want to see His manifest glory in worship in His congregation.
Man my heart bursts to want to see that. To see, feel the awesomeness and to usher people there. Where there's healing, restoration and the melting of the coldest heart.
And i know it can be done and it must be done.
Ha as you can see that's my focus in terms of church ministry this year.
Maybe it's time to seriously take up a course on worship leading.
Haha as much as i just want to be a member of the congregation just lost in His awesome presence and be an excellent worshipper, guess God has other plans.
I'm still awfully weak, scared of lots of stuff,really not strong inside, but i want to step out and fly!
Dreaming is such a fun thing to do, not the day dreaming kind or the night one but the ability to see a picture, a glimpse of hope, seeing through the eyes of jesus.
Hehe if you got any such pictures do share! I want to hear, it's so exciting.
If you don't, then get cracking man, start having those visions that would bring so much excitement and passion.
As my friend mentioned that a vision that was seen gave her so much hope, excitment and fulfillment knowing that it came from god. And man the joy she had when she saw it come to pass. Way cooL!
Sighz a pity mine is filled with mostly dumb day dreaming of saving the world or being a knight in shinning armor ahha.
Must pray.
Let's all see pictures of hope together! A window into the future of what exciting things god can do.
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josh out
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