Friday, March 30, 2007
Getting sick of my mood swings.
Recently been spending time with my aunties as we are practicing for an item we are presenting during Easter.
It's a hymn called Were you there? Hard to sing..
So here i am sitting around dinner table hearing about how my mom was when she was younger and even how she is now. And i start to see similarities.
See how she was whinny at times, mood swings at times.
Then my cousin said woo your brother sure takes after her.
I guess i got streaks of that too.
It's comforting to know, hey i do have traits that belong to my mom :)
Ha i'm my mom's son lolz
And hey i do know where they come from not some random bersek cosmic Big Bang.
But then again i still have a choice on how to respond and behave.
I hate it, i hate it, i detest it.
I don't hate myself but i hate this part wish it would just burn and die.
Die is not strong enough a word maybe be trashed, sqaushed, shredded.
If i keep it within myself, suffer in silence, hey that's cool.
Dunno why it has to show on my face and body language, maybe i'm just too Attention Seeking.
Want the whole world to suffer together.
Wish there was a mask i could put on, a smiley one, the joker's face.
I don't want people to have to be affected by how i'm.
Scared at the same time, want ppl around me to get on with their lives.
Live happily regardless of how i'm.
It hurts cause i'm attention seeking but still better.
.....Really such a silly attention seeking boy
Stop it
Smile josh smile
Anyway i won't give up, won't die, will keep on walking, dragging my feet though i may not be great at surrendering, or even if i don't have much faith
But this much i know, nothin, nothing, is ever worth giving up God for.
Ha what's that Michale Bublé song?
Smile
Though your heart is aching
Smile
Even though it's breaking
When there are cloudsIn the sky,
You'll get byIf you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
SmileAnd maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun
Come shining through
For you
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear
May be ever so near
And if you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile
And maybe tomorrow
You'll see the life
Is still worthwhile
If you just smile
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josh out
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